As I explained before I am going to Journal observing the ways the Lord is in my every day life.
A dear friend also said I should journal about how evil was in my life every day also. I think that is a wonderful idea, so we are more aware of how evil also affects our every day life, so I can become more aware of it's presence and they different ways evil is present to help me not only be aware of evil but to also help me not only reject evil in my life but to avoid it or to battle evil when needed.
Today was definitely a clear day for me how the Lord is present in my life and how evil was also present in my life.
As every one was leaving for Mass tonight and to receive there ashes together. Here I sat, with jealousy and bitterness welling up inside me because I was not going to be with my family and friends for this wondrous event.
As Mass was going on I prayed, (the Lord's presence) but my mind kept wondering to why the hell am I doing this. I am not part of this church anymore, I am not included, for all most my church family knows I have moved never to be heard from again. I live in to small of a town for them to think I am pushing up daisies. Then the jealousy hit, why is so and so there they aren't very nice and me who tries so hard isn't a thought in anyone's mind sitting here alone. Then the bitterness hit, there not including me so why am I including them. ( That my friends is pure evil at work)
Just when I was giving up, wasn't going to give it another thought, especially since I wasn't going to be blessed with ashes, to be apart of my community in Christ, the phone rings, and this gentle kind voice says, "Have you gotten your ashes today". Now that was the Lord sitting right next to me on my bed grinning at me as if to say, "why do you doubt me child".
Day one of this Journal/Journey and already God versed Evil and we all know who won....me....blessed when in no way did I deserve it. WOW!
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