Today was a terrible trying day both physically and emotionally. The physical part can easier be explained than the emotional troubles.
There is a storm coming in and the change in the pressure is creating a storm within my body. It would be easier to tell you what doesn't hurt than it would be to tell you what does hurt. And let me assure you I use the word hurt lightly, because by no means is this hurt minor or to be taken lightly. That I know how to deal with the best that I can or at least try to deal with.
The emotional storm and pain is not so easily dealt with and let me tell you that is saying something considering how high my pain levels are the last few days.
I am never going to understand people. You give them love, you are kind to them, you are compassionate towards them, you reach out to them in kind and they still cut your throat and leave you to bleed to death at the side of life's highway without so much as a glance back.
It is hard to not return their actions towards them, you know the eye for an eye stuff. But we all know that tit for tat has never solved on single problem within them or within you. I have reach the point that the only thing I do know to do is cry when it hurts to much and pray to get over it.
Yes I was tempted to lash back but I am learning the temptations of evil trying to tear me done. And I am learning to be ever so grateful that the Lords sits with me when it hurts so much and the tears roll straight out of my heart.
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